Not only action but also beyond that, you need to be clean
I am under the thought of my servant. Or in Arabic, ana ‘inda dzonni abdi, ان عند ظنّ عبدى
What inside is what in your reality. What inside is what outside. What’s inside is what’s outside. Inside may be thought or beyond that. So be careful with your thought and with something beyond your thought.
But what come first? Thought and beyond (tab) or action? I think it is tab. But action is the mirror of what inside. So, do you remember less than a week ago? You were witnessing an accident! A woman with a motorcycle had an accident at a crossroad somewhere street to Denggung. What did you do at that time? You sit still with your wedang jahe and gorengan in front of you. What happened inside you? what was happening with your tab?
Remember, I am under the tab of my servant! You did not show any good action at that time, when the moment want you to act in good way. So, what was and is going on with your tab?
Go back to your own accident before asar today. You were slipped off at a mosque in Jalan Kaliurang. It was raining and the floor was wet. After you did a dhuhur prayer with your children and wive, and you were going to your motorcycle. When you reach two or three foot steps, you were slipped off and you jatuh terlentang. Kedua tanganmu sepertinya menahan atau mungkin terkena pinggir undakan lantai masjid. Anda terduduk beberapa saat (5 menit) merasakan kemengnya kedua pangkal lenganmu. Ujung telunjuk jari kakimu berdarah. Alhamdulillah.
Semoga peringatan kecil ini adalah peringatan yang besar, yang bisa menjadikan pelajaran bagiku untuk berhati-hati dan berpikir-pikir, mulai dari tataran tab maupun tataran action.
Kalau tab bersih dan bagus, action Anda seharusnya juga akan lurus-lurus saja. Hidupmu juga mudah-mudah saja. Siapa yang mampu mengalahkan Majikanmu? Nah! kalau tab-mu sudah lurus dan shoheh, tidak ada ketidaksenangan dan ketidakamanan detik-detik hidupmu. Semuanya lancar-lancar dan lancar-lancar, karena I am under the thought of my servant!